What are we waiting for?/Stop waiting

There's something sad about waiting. Waiting too long kills the dream and the feeling. Now it feels like it lasts forever, and I start to forget names and faces and the reason why I came at the first place. It makes me sad. And there's this grey veil in front of my eyes when I'm sad, and I guess it feels right, 'cause it makes everything look black and white, simple and pure, closer to truth. The cliche of the statement "life is too short" is worn out, still, sometimes I need to remind myself, 'cause you're not here to remind me, remind me that I should stop waiting...

What are we waiting for?
(lyrics)
18/10/2010

I want to be at a place I call home,
I want to be the one you call your own!
And to kiss the face of the one I always wanted,
Don't miss my change 'cause we only have one death...

What are we waiting for?
What are we waiting for this time?

What is that we're waiting for?
Our time runs out before we know,
We know...

As I lay awake I recall
Every word you've said
On that cold day, and it all seemed too late...

Listen to the song!

Stop waiting
(lyrics)
05/12/2010

Nothing could stop us
From falling apart.
I poured all my feeling
That I've found in my heart.
I watched as the liquid flows
And the feeling grows...

I just want to let go of this
Now and forever!
I just want to forget all I know,
And stop waiting for her...

Listen to the song!

Deathlong

No offence to those who want to kill themselves, but this song is not about suicide.
Sometimes saying " I love you" is just not enough, same as "I hate you" or "I miss you" and I could go on. I think "I hate it when I am right" is one of these as well, but then again simple words wouldn't tell how I feel. Here's a song about it:

Deathlong
(Lyrics)
08/2008

I should try to kill myself instead
Of blaming you that you are dead,
To me, to what I have in my head,
You could never feel like that...

I know you won't be able,
To wait, to wait that long...
I wish you could prove,
That I am...I am wrong!

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Stuck in reverse

I keep having these dreams. I talk to her, she says she's sorry, I can't believe her anymore, but something tells me to come back for more. I wake up and feel bad about the whole thing. I never loved her, I never understood her and never will, still here I am every day in front of her door, I'm not knocking, just waiting...

Stuck in reverse
18/11/2009
(Lyrics)

I feel, so insecure under this pressure...
I'm trying to find the cure, to make this better!

I can't lose what I never had,
I'm not losing you!
All that you are,
All the things that you say and do,
We're stuck in reverse...

Listen to the song!